Fire & Ice

Oh please, you got to be kidding me! A Twilight reference!?! You know you can do better than that. Sadly, I can’t. because guess what that’s the last movie I saw….because….. Jacob is way hotter and my attempts of making a point ends here. So yeah, what’s up? Nothing much here except yeah, everything is hot or cold.

1. I’ve lost 8 pounds and grew some curves in the appropriate places. What??? No kidding. (I’m thanking my secret benefactor for this. Yep it’s a trade secret for now.) I deserve a little credit, my self-esteem needs some positive validation at this point. A moment to gloat…..*hihihihi*

2. Tempers are flaring everywhere. I’m not used to experiencing such increase in hormonal activity from others. It’s almost insanity. I didn’t sign up for any of this. If I want some drama, I would have pursued theater or joined PBB. On second thought…..hmmmm.

3. I’ve become Switzerland - an autonomous self-destructing ball of sponge. ABSORB.ABSORB.ABSORB. 

4. The whole LOST mythology has gotten the best of me. I manage to associate any random event to it, I’m beginning to sound like some fanatic with separation anxiety issues. If you watch the show, you’d know what I mean. THE ISLAND IS NOT DONE WITH YOU YET.  It has become my mantra for so long. I’m beginning to actually use it as a defense mechanism.

5. Just got appraised (evaluated,critiqued,etc).  An important note: AVOID UNNECESSARY COMMENTS meaning making inappropriate jokes or side comments during meetings. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I’m a jackass. I know. But I take pride that my humor…..among all other things made a huge deal. Did I offend people? Hmmmk. Speak now or forever hold your peace. Nobody raised this and certainly nobody confronted me that I offend them. I like that people laugh when I joke. Not most of the time because, usually they are sarcastic or blunt.  I cannot apologize for my humor. It is who I am.  

I am glad that my team mates understands me. I never expected them to give such humbling comments. When I read their feedback/s I felt some sort of self-fulfillment like a little pat in the back that reassures you, you’re not a failure as you think you are. I know there are still areas I need to work on and I know that I will continue doing what I can to help them out.COZ THE INGRATA GIVES BACK.

LAME. I know. Like your opinion really matters to me…